Some success later

It's weird. I'm always afraid they are going to find out I'm a fraud. That while they are busy saying how good I am, they aren't noticing that I'm not that great. But I'm not a fraud. The work is mine, the time and effort, the creative solutions and original endeavors, mine. Yet somehow, never good enough. And I'm afraid they'll realize, worried they'll notice. I could do better. Then where would I be...
I achieve and I rejoice but there is a heaviness in it. I can do better.